divided

if i could have separate lives, these are the lives i would live:
- the one i'm living now where i become an art teacher and renowned artist after grad school and much world travel.
- the one where i didn't switch to art and i really did become a PA and travel the world working with people and educating them about health.  i think i would live in south africa.  [this is the one i, maybe, wish most was reality]
- the one where i stay in dance classes past 7 years old and i become a triple threat (sing, dance, act) and live and work and love and eat in new york and london and other performing hubs.  [for this, i would have to be good at lying, of sorts, which i am not. very not.]
- the one where i live in the mountains and work at a horse stable teaching peeps to ride beautiful horses and i live outside.  where it's green.
- the one where i study languages, and get recruited by a secret operation because of my mad language skills.
- the one where i'm a jazz singer.
- the one where i have a folk band and i'm on the banjo. [not not an option.  double negative.]
- the one where i'm a midwife. and all i do is work with women and their babies.

i have far too many interests.  it makes it really hard to concentrate sometimes.