photo update

so i'm aware that most people that read this can see these pictures on the fb. however, i needed to document the summer for myself because i've been avoiding my dumb camera. anyone with a left over point-and-shoot, feel free to donate to my cause.

from the beginning of summer to present:

bestie K and i making the spiral jetty at the dinosaur museum. best.

at a wedding for somebody i don't know. but it was fun to be with my friends. and it was beautiful. they were filthy dirty rich. i'm not even mentioning the tucanos catering.

hiking with the roomies. found a great little rock to settle on up the canyon a bit. it was a good day.

barbeque pre-4th of july. we didn't know what to do with our hands.

funnel cake with GC and long lost roomie R. fun. very fun.

two of my very favorite (vavorite) things. elote and being with wsb.

jumping off the bridge on the 4th of july. i was so proud of myself.

some besties. just before the best fireworks.

cousins in driggs, ID. beautiful weekend.

it's been a great summer so far.

a few things

1- i hate that i can't save photos off fb anymore. they get all weird and save a butt-ton of pictures to your downloads file. correct me if i'm wrong.

2- i just had this thought, "in a few years, when all these people are really grown up and we don't live in the same place anymore, we'll be able to read blogs, and re-connect. or just remember the good ol' times." it was a good thought.

3- hair by lady gaga is truly one of my favorite songs right now.

3.5- i know that summertime is usually filled with short hair and sunshine, but i am loving getting-longer curls. it feels the most summery to me.

4- europe countdown: [not counting today] 45 days.

5- the plan is almost set in stone to have a teeny pre-europe adventure in chicago and madison. look out midwest, you thought you'd miss me this year.

6- temples are wonderful places. still riding a high from wednesday eve.

7- 3:15am showing of HP7 P2 last night. two things about it: worth it and never again.

8- i don't actually count 8 things as a few. it goes like this in my brain: one(1), a couple(2), a few(3-4), a handful(5-6), several(7-unknown). after 7 it gets confusing for everybody, so i avoid counting that high. speaking of counting...

9- i really love summer activities. number one being lawn/porch sitting.

10- going to jackson hole this weekend. i'll get to see my mom's bro's fam, which is the last on that side i have to see post-mish.

11- humans live saga to saga. my next comes march 23,2012. hunger games.

that is all.

unintentional hiatus

real and honest friends seem hard to come by for a lot of people. [here is where i say, "but not i." but i won't, because that isn't the point.] they just sort of happen without thinking about it. no need for a proposal, or asking someone to meet specific needs. friendship just happens. just exists. and more often than i think.

as the summer lives on, i have met and appreciated so many people. not just personalities, or traits. but people. real people. people who are in, no longer in, or not yet in, my life. i'm losing my sense of perfection and its associated, romantic expectation. a person is a person, and shouldn't be expected to be more. learning to feel this with my soul has helped me accept reality. that life is real and honest, and thereby allows people to be so.

now, i don't mean life is honest in a sense that lies never happen, but that lies are real, and i have to learn to deal with them. reality is no longer something i must face, but something i already live in. reality is learning the hard way, even though people my elder offer help and advice. reality is learning the hard way because its the easiest way to learn. reality is experience. and adventure.

my innate sense of worry has given way to my growing sense of adventure lately. i've jumped off bridges. spent every moment possible outside. i have many mosquito bites. [not that that is an indicator of adventurism, but maybe. or maybe just stupidity.] but more than in my activities, my exploration has branched to my relationships. i am in new and exciting friendships. i am in old and comfortable friendships. i am learning from and about these friends. these friends may, or maybe not, be learning from and about me. surprisingly enough, it has taken me 23 and a half years to figure out the idea of a two-way street.

i feel good. i feel strong. i feel lovable and confident. i feel full of faith. i feel uncertain and uncomfortable. i feel nervous. i feel adventurous.

i like my life. i like my friends. i feel the word "like" is underused. there is too much to live for. i'm learning to pace myself and let the happenings come as they will.

i haven't got it all figured out, but i'm getting it in pieces and liking it. new is almost always hard, but almost always good. here is to new everything. and letting new be old one day.