pre-emptive defense

we miss you, katie! hope you're having fun with your fam! loves.

fambly

gotta love that face.
my cousin Hathaway was at our house this year for christmas. it was the most delightful little present to have. she is the cutest, and smartest little girl ever. she made us laugh, she made us nap and she had us eating out of the palm of her hand. classic twenty-one month old. anyway, christmas was wonderful, and now my oldest bro from NY is here. we got errrbody. and werr gettin tipss.

up at 5:37 and a little hungry actually

so, i've been packing and cleaning literally all day. i am sorta past the i'm-so-tired-everything-is-funny phase, and moving onto the what-on-earth-have-i-done phase. all day drive tomorrow. and by tomorrow i mean in about 30 minutes.

i'll be home for a while. leaving provo is most definitely bittersweet. i can't stand the thought of leaving lauren here all by her lonesome. hence neither of us have slept tonight. and my dearest chelsey cried in our hug. tears have been integrated into my finals week. pretty much broke down when i had to write about the prompt i didn't study for in art history. but, thats not the point. the point is, i only have control over my life. i get to put my life on hold for a year and a half, and nobody else has to. thats not fair. but its also not fair to miss someone's wedding. that someone you've told about every crush, that someone you planned your crushes and weddings with at 13, that someone who has always always been around and willing to hear you vent, that someone who is in every one of your good memories from the last 8 years. its not fair to miss those kinds of stepping stones in other people's lives. not at all fair.

but LIFE isn't fair. but it is adventurous. and i am about to set off for what is quite possibly the most adventurous thing i've ever done. i look forward to a lot, and i'm nervous about a lot. but i know that i'll have company, and i'll learn more than i possibly could in a year and a half at school. so, here's to the Christmas season and being thankful. thank you for the sweet goodbyes. i have to say, provo will miss me. 18 months isn't THAT long anyway...

believe it or not

i have cut yet another of my fingers. yeah, i am a little slow. i was feeling the edge of my friend jeremy's pots with my pointer finger on my right hand, and i felt a sharp pain. i looked at my finger and said, "oh you've got to be kidding me. seriously?!" i cut right into the pad of my pointer finger. i couldn't believe it. it was no where near the magnitude of my previous cuts. however, it stings like mad. and seeing as my whole life revolves around the use of my hands, i feel a little useless. BUT! i am on the mend. i just find it ridiculous that my last 3 posts have been about my studio mis-haps. i will be writing something about the temple later i think. but i really want to sit down and think about that one first. too busy finishing my last week of school for a year and a half. booya.

dumb thumb dumb thumb

yeah, i cut it again. it was really really dumb. i was headed down a set of stairs and the first step came sooner than anticipated. therefore i was surprised and grabbed the banister. which was unfortunately covered in chicken wire and it cut my thumb right open. yes it was painful, again. and yes it was bleeding. not quite as bad as before though. just very upsetting. because my nerves are again exposed and they hurt like a mother. good-bye use of right thumb for the next week and a half.

happy t-givins

loud loud families are the best. i love mine. my little sister is loving college apparently and it was great to just be at home. poor josh had to put up with a decibel level he was not accustomed to. and we have officially learned that we do not deal with empty stomachs very well. the missing fuddruckers was quite upsetting. but always good memories for me! my family is affectionately coo coo in the ko ko.

ps- my dad is a riot. video coming soon.