too too funny

two wonderful brothers

i just bought a backpack for me to use camping and in europe soon. i did a little bit of searching around, but i would never have known what i was really doing without these two dudes.

obviously, there are more occurrences than just this week, but i have been especially grateful for their knowledge and willingness to share it with me. thanks for being loving and thanks for being good brothers. love you both.

my art

this has been a long time coming. here is some of my pottery. i have had a few requests in the past, and now it's here. this is the portfolio i used when i applied, and got in, to the BFA program. note: a few of these pieces are broken now. not all are still available.

saucer

cup with lines

square cup

raku cup

tea time in lacrosse (my piece that showed in the Mud Show 2010 - BYU Gallery 303)

segmented bowl

large serving bowl

skinny vase

square vase (two views)

asymetrical vase

bulbous vase

open vase

if you would like some of my work feel free to contact me, they are definitely for sale. i think i want to start working on commission soon too. keep in touch and let me know what you think. one day i'll have my own website for this kind of stuff.

what a turn around

last night, this woman [as wonderful as she is] haunted my dreams.

i dreamed that there was a girl painter that needed space in our studio, and V here offered up my very own space! i sat and pouted for a little while. she said i should have been working harder since the semester ended and then all of a sudden my space was clear and i couldn't do anything about it. V noticed how i was feeling, and said, "i gotta go talk to Slacker over here," and came to talk to me. she asked if i had anything to say for my work from the semester. i said no, because i felt sheepish. anyway, i woke up in a virtual sweat. i was so uncomfortable.

roommate CA and i went to the spring salon show in springville, and that was nice. the day was okay. then i got a voicemale from a lady back in my hometown. guess who's going to LA stake girls camp twenty eleven? thats right. me. i'm makin' it work. i'll most likely be hiking with some 3rd or 4th years. who knows.

then at work i get the updated version of our calendar for england. did i mention i'm going to england? for 3 months? and i'm visiting ireland afterward? well i am.

anyway, i got this sudden wave of excitement for everything that's happening and will be happening in the future. it was especially great after the chat i had last night with roomie CA about some transition anxiety i have been feeling.

new house. new ward. new adventures.

i'm feeling so positive and so excited for everything that is coming. known and unknown. just feelin' good. had to share it.

also, feelin' great about these women being in my life.

the blog-o-sphere

i have been out of touch for a while, not because of the 18 month sabbatical [btw, i have been home 8 months as of monday of this week], but because my school work has been taking over my life. i didn't check my email or facebook for 3 whole days. i came back and eventually got to my google reader. [ps- how are facebook and google not in the online dictionary? its 2011 people. get that squiggly red line out from under those words.] i found 15 new posts for me to read! i try to stay on top of my reader. i like knowing about people. but 15 seemed outrageous. anyway, among them were posts from friends and family. sibs and cousins and roommates and just friends. let this be my way of saying, thanks for your friendship. thanks for being part of my life, and thanks for sharing your photos and families with me. i like reading your blogs.

much love, guys. much love.

paralyzed

whenever i have to write a paper... i get paralyzed.

i'll start feeling again tomorrow after 9:30 am. we'll see how it goes.

wish me luck.

untitled

how do you fight this?

-"the leading cause of divorce is marriage"
-"intimacy breeds conflict"
-the fact that none of the conflict approaches sounded productive or really functional

all this coming from an article in marriage prep. conflict type and conflict resolution.
i may or may not be losing hope right now...

slice of heaven

watched one of my favorite movies, keeping mum, last night. with 4 of my very favorite people. ever. so so favorite.

today, i'm making pistachio bread for a potluck at b-66 and listening to slow jazz and NPR. best day ever???

oh yeah, and later i'm going to big lots with hopefully two of those 4 favorites.

tentative plan

this week i have been forming a tentative plan for my life. starting with this summer, because it seems like a great time of life. summer in provo, living with CA riding my bike(pics to come). autumn in London with john bennion and peter everett. winter back in provo to start art education. summer in alaska, so i can make bank and maybe pay off some loans. autumn again in provo to finish up art education. winter in india to do my student teaching and hang out with dani maybe? it didn't really become a plan until the india part became a possibility. but it sounds like an adventure to me. plus, i can really only handle provo so much at one time. it will have been a year by the end of the summer, and it will be time to GET OUT.
thoughts? improvements? suggestions?

why i love my major

NO H-ING PAPERS.

recent inspiration

last week i was sitting in a gallery for about 20 minutes just listening and experiencing. sometimes i think it is the single healthiest thing i could do for my mind, just sitting and pondering. i thought about the artist, the art, the idea, my ideas, my art, me as an artist. i felt so inspired to do something great. i don't know how or why i have discovered this love of mine, but its priceless to me. i feel like i have been searching for passion my whole life. i found a piece of it. i just wrote in my little red book and thought. about my past, and my future. my worth and its definition. i don't think i have been defined by that specific show, but the more art i see, the more defined i become. i am building a person of strength, courage, and diligence. i've got my faults like everyone else, but i'm re-learning to focus on my abilities.

in my own artwork, i have been working smaller. little entities of humans. they don't look like people at all, but when they interact with each other, you can tell there is a conversation. for another unknown reason, i have been intrigued and inspired by conversation and representing it and creating it. i'm trying to understand how people are perceived and how simple body movements change feeling in someone else. body language is more universal than any other and i think thats fascinating.

i have to make plans for more people watching, because i think that is the essence of what i'm trying to represent. a moment in the time two beings have together without the whole story. thats what i want to capture. and i LOVE this. i love what i do. i love being real. and i'm passionate about having passions.

here are some artists who inspire me:

jean claude and christo - wrapped trees

peter haakon thompson - www.the-a-project.org

sylvia ramachandran - i can't seem to find her site. but i had a wonderful studio visit with her.

jennifer lee - just beautiful pottery.

go. create conversation.

for everyone

here's a beautiful video my friend whitney put on her blog. its a public service announcement. just, enjoy.

two kisses and a rose

i just wanted to say that it was maybe my best [and maybe this is really saying something] valentine's day ever yesterday. i didn't have class, i did some homemaking things like cleaning my room, putting the ipod on shuffle, doing some dishes and folding laundry while i listened to npr. i got kissed on both sides of my face and i got a surprise rose from a neighbor. thank you kev, matthew and rob for making it a great day.

feb. 11

this day in history:

i went into the MTC 2 years ago.

but more importantly, Cairo made its own history.

tired of a common feeling

you know how you have those days where you just sort of feel worthless? i think i've been having too many of those. i really miss my bf lauren and its hard to feel like i have any friends as good as her. she always made me feel funny and smart and worth her time. i truly don't mean to be making a cry for help or pity or anything. i'm just tired of not saying how i feel.

at times i feel like i'm not allowed to feel bad or sad or insecure. like i just shouldn't talk about it if thats how i really feel. its probably just me thinking/feeling that way, but its real. i feel like, if what i'm feeling isn't happy and exciting, its not worth sharing. not worth bringing someone else down. but then i don't end up getting anything out, and i'm just mopey all the time, which i HATE. i don't like it when other people are mopey, and i seriously don't like being the mopey one. i miss having that person around who always validated me and always made me feel worth while. crying doesn't really make anything better. so really its just getting out and creating friendships that didn't exist before. i guess i should just be grateful for a friend like lauren. so, heres to you, lauren. and to my two other besties who moved away.